Totally+Paranoid

I find it hard to say, that everything is alright
Don't look at me that way, like everything is alright
Cuz my own eyes can see, through all your false pretenses
But what you fail to see, is all the consequences
You think our lives are cheap, and easy to be wasted
As history repeats, so foul you can taste it Stuck in a system that seeks to suck your blood
Held emotionally hostage by what everybody does

*”Sigh”*

Even the person I would love to talk to the most, I do not want to talk. I have so much to say, then nothing at all. And you know what the best part is? I know you care, but I have no idea how to reverse what I have done. I do not know if I even want to, because things feel better this way, or rather, the lack of feeling anything. “I’ve learnt to drown my sorrows but they have learnt to swim. “ And in the midst of all is this big misunderstanding that is so funny yet sad at the same time that I have no idea whether or not to laugh or cry, if I can even do that right now.